unspecial
I've nothing much to say about today aside from that the slight cold I caught is kicking my arse. But I did manage to lift weights during lunch and that made me feel heaps better, at least while the endorphin high lasted. One small thrill is that the guy who runs the gym check-in counter apparently thinks I'm pretty sugoi and told my friend that I'm strong and have "a big muscle." Dood, only one? I'm not sure why... but that guy looks hella familiar too. Since he's a Nihonjin, where could I know him from?

I survived most of performing arts class because the prof was 15 minutes late and spent the remainder of class writing a letter that will probably remain unsent. Am I the only one who does this? Writes things for others knowing perfectly well that they will never see them? What do you do with your unsent letters?

My East Asian Religions class is seriously some perverse form of Asian torture. The prof, while obviously well-educated, seems not to know a thing about how to teach or how to answer the few questions he gets. He has already broken our spirits by lecturing nonsensically about nothing in particular (i.e. random dates and names) and then reading straight from the assigned text at us. Hey, buddy? Not kindergarten, OK?

So I skipped my "circle" (club) meeting (probably dull anyway) to come home here and do homework. I feel like I'm running on empty. I'm lonely and tired and all I want is to held and loved and touched. There is no one here and will never be anyone here who can do that for me. Tokyo is only and instant in my life... it's transient and I can't open my heart for transience. There is already too much in me that is lasting.

Bah. But I bore you with all my emotional drivel. This is probably why I'm uncool and don't have 2 million hits like Big White Guy, a gaijin living in Hong Kong. That and his layout is cooler.

Seriously though... slow day on CNN.com? That blogger site (as cool as it is) and some crap about a world rock, paper, scissors tournament made top headlines. At least the news isn't adding more stress to my life.