tipping the scale...seeking balance
I've had a lot of people comment recently about the dual nature of my personality. One moment I'm chipper as a schoolgirl, the next I'm intensely introspective and melancholy. No, I'm not bipolar or suffering from multiple personalities, I'm just subject to my star sign. I'm what the astrologers call a "true libra." A person who is both patient and attentive but who also likes to talk a lot and do many different things. I value order and chaos equally in my life. I need a routine but not TOO much of a routine. I take both sides of an issue and argue against myself. All things equally. I'm not a hypocrite, I want to understand why all people think what they do. If there's one thing I need in my life, it's controversy. I crave it, I crave knowing the excitement, understanding the players, and figuring out what moves them. I like being a part of controversy even more than I like witnessing it. I get a thrill out of pissing someone off and justifying myself. I love to argue... constructively, mind you. I love the passion. Life without passion is just ... blah.

I'm not unhappy. I have a pleasant life, everything I need. I'm just seeking a bit of controversy to motivate me, to give me a reason to keep awake. Nothing too dramatic, just a little passion to infuse the mundane.