Adventure and Misadventure
Here I am, back in Eugene again... this strange place where I am slowly weaving my story. I spent four days in lovely Palm Beach, Florida. Yes, I came back a day early to be with my family. What was I thinking? I was thinking that spending a day alone with AC Speyer and Rita didn't sound like fun. That, and I was already sunburnt and itchy beyond belief. Allow me to elaborate: Justin and his dad left for St. John's on Friday morning. I had some overlap time before I left, the opp. came to go home and I took it. I think I'd had enough adventure and misadventure for a while.

I'm going to refrain from recouning the trip to Florida until Justin comes back with the digital photos I took for the weblog. [and I still need my film developed] I couldn't help but writing while I was there, hard copy. This weblog really has me going. So look forward to a lengthy tale, divided into day long accounts. Don't worry, I shall give them their own pages. As a sneak preview, I will say that I spent some time in the emergency room. And I ate alligator and saw real dolphins like 2 feet away. And there are some boobies in my story, but not much about hot guys since I really only have eyes for Wolf Pup. (though I did meet a cute chick from NY named Angel ; ) Ahh, I have finally stopped itching from my damn sunburn so I can relax and go to bed. But first, a word...

I went to Church with my family today, for the first time in ages. Easter and Christmas are pretty much the only services I care for anymore. I've always been fond of Easter, even if it is overcommercialized. It's still a white-magic holiday, and so utterly pagan that the Christians can't hide the fertility rites. Anyway, their Church is one of those "alive' Christian churches where people raise their hands and sing the same bad guitar music every week. Actually, the pastor is really great and has this cute south-african british accent but besides that, it's all hokey-pokey.

I was impressed when I walked in the door. I really LIKE the atmosphere of a church. Usually, so many good feelings. It was almost overwhelming and euphoric at first. I kind of stood there like a silly kid in a cathedral until I realized that this was your average-joe basement service and people were looking at me. Faith is a good thing. I patiently observed most of the church while they sang, and listened to the sermon with open ears. Everything said made sense.

I guess you could say I'm a believer. But in what? In a higher power... in magic, in essence, in life. I guess I'm animistic, maybe even pantheistic in a way. But I don't understand Christianity. It has good beliefs [for the most part].... but the fundamental of CHRIST is beyond me.

Okay, let's say Christ really lived. I'd believe that. Let's say he was a great teacher. I believe that too. Let's even say he was a demi-god, and I'll accept it. What I don't understand is WHY PEOPLE WORSHIP HIM. Christ was created to lead people to god. I kind of see him as a sort of 'zen master.' But what purpose does he serve in a religion that claims the only way to god is "through him"? I think he'd be offended; he was humble... I think he'd say "worship God, not me!" I think he would tell people that it was beside the point that he lived and died, as long as they believe in God.

If we consider that Christ and God are one and the same, that's another thing entirely... but to say that no one can reach God unless they worship a man, and believe he rose from the dead with all their heart is asking the wrong thing. Christ is a condiut, in my opinion. A teacher and a wise man... but God is God and to get to him through one man's teaching may be a path but it can't be the only past. Does one worship the zen master on the way to enlightenment? No... [though christianity is not zen by any means...] It seems to me hypocritical to worship a great teacher in a religion that forbids idols.

Can't we see God's teaching through God himself, rather than through Mohammed or Christ? What about a religion called, maybe "GODianity" or something... Can you imagine what THAT would have done for history? A people united, perhaps?

Come on, people... Let's leave out the middle man. It just makes so much more sense.

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Food for thought: Disney and Final Fantasy together?? Hmm.