f*ck drama
OK, I may be a b*tch on occasion, a cynic in the morning and sarcastic most of the time, but Drama Queen I am no longer. It be unsympathetic of me but I get so f*cking SICK of all the Drama Queens and Emo-Pain Whores (both male and female) I know. Most of these people I know only by proxy-- for good reason, because I can't STAND them. And you know the honest reason it makes me nauseous to be around someone with a lust for drama?

Because I used to be just. Like. That.

Even though it makes perfect sense, it shocks me how ignorant people are of their cycles of destruction. I hear them talk about the pain of living and how "no one understands." They whine and they carry on without realizing that the world isn't doing crap to them-- they're doing it to themselves.

Of course, they say they DON'T do it and they'd never WANT to put themselves through anything like their infinite pain. The big secret is that they DO want it. They need it to survive. They feed on drama because without it there is only fear of the unknown, the fear of making a choice that cannot be undone, the fear of leaving an addiction as serious as any drug.

I know some people I swear are victims of paranoid schizophrenia, codependency complex or narcissistic personality disorder. Some of these people need sereious professional help. Others just need to get over themselves. When I think that many of them will NEVER learn to truly be happy and will always lived trapped in a cycle of psychological violence against themselves, I get bloody angry. And this is my rage against the machine that is modern social depression. This is for all the zoloft, paxil, misprescribed ritalin and Thursday drinking binges:

WAKE UP. THE WORLD IS NOT OUT TO GET YOU.

Sure, there are some crazy f*cks out there. You may be one of them. But for Christ's sake, at least be a happy crazy f*ck. Stop waiting for it to happen. Stop basing your existence on something that will come along "someday" and save you. That something will never come until you realize that you already have everything you ever need.

Forgive your past, give up on the "golden future" and just live. F*ck the drama. It might make you feel Real but it's just another cocaine high. And it's not worth it.