dry run
When I want to write (or feel like I should write) but can't, the only thing that really makes me feel better is that no one else ever updates either.

So, hm, this weekend I cleaned a lot. And met more of the Speyer family East-Coast dynasty (read: Justin's rich-as-hell uncle). As usual I loved the family, particularly his 24-year-old cousin Paige. Unusual, because I don't often get along well with females. But I really clicked well with her. I'd hope we could be friends but she lives in Jackson Hole, Wy and will shortly be returning to her boyfriend in Brazil... so I guess not. What else did I do this weekend? Bought the kickass cd... did some homework.. ripped some seams on a chemise I'm wearing to the wedding next week. Went for a walk with Alex in the sun. Thank god for late-spring/ early summer. We impulsively decided we're going to see the last Broadway run of Les Miserables in Portland two weekends from now. Yah!

Still haven't been getting enough sleep but managing to evade stress and depression lately. Been feeling introspective but not writing about it. Mostly thinking about a) my overactive sense of imagination b) the lack of "sure things" in my life c) bohemian ideals d) how much Justin and I struggle to identify with each other (et what it means for us) and e) how afraid I am of not succeeding but now it's because I KNOW I CAN so I have to try harder, whereas before, I just never did anything out of fear.

I've been taking hella pictures and I'm sure I'll post more here. I'm working on a template for a photoblog that I should have up soon (read: sometime in the next decade). I realized why I like narrow depth-of-field closeups so much. It's because I'm nearsighted as all hell. It's how I see the world. My pictures are improving. I got an A on my craptastic assignment, despite that it sucked. This organic farm photo assignment is coming along well. One of the two girls in my photo-j class with photo experience came up to me after class to tell me that she thought my work prints were the best. Me??

And alas, the domain I want to reserve expired today but has to go through at least 60 days of grace period before it's on the market again. WTF???