A time to...
Far be it for me to wish to jinx myself, but I think I can safely say that the dreams are gone. [Watch me come back tomorrow and regret this.] I don't know if I've learned what all I'm supposed to learn from them, but I may be well on my way. Probably wouldn't be best for me to post the contents of these night wanderings on my weblog, but here are a few things I think I've come away with.

• I need to release the wondering adolescent in me, to converse freely and deeply again. I want to find that connection with another person. I want to be loved for the way that I think, not just the way that I feel.


• Sometimes I need to be reaffirmed. Tell me I'm real.


• There is a universe of perfection inside our minds, that escapes all the intricacies, strategy, and instinctual madness of Real Life. We can never reach it, but we must revel in its existence. It is all we have of heaven, and all we ever will have.


• I want to know that people can be forgiven.


• Happiness in oneself is knowing happiness for other people, regardless of pain.


• To seek is not always to find, to touch is not to hold, and knowing is unknowing.


• The past is the future.

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Also, I am getting way sick of this template. It at least needs a right hand sidebar, as well. Der. I'm too busy right now to attack it with Dreamweaver Ultra-Dev 4 that Alex so generously gave to me. Plus, when I open the source, it just f*cks the tables right up. I guess i's time to start over from scratch.

Right now I'm working on Financial Aid for next year. According to the University, I'll be a senior come fall. Already? Jeezus. That means I'll be a fifth year, regardless of how long I've really been here. Sometimes ya fail no matter how hard ya try. ; ) Oh well, c'est la vie. Anyway, I got FAFSA completed about three months earlier than last year so I can qualify for more scholarships. I might even apply for some other random cash grants and stuff. I'm soooooo poor. ^^

Okay, back to work. Yay. Have to work on my 'personal meditation' for VisComm. *gags*