Hibernation
So far this vacation has consisted of me sleeping. A lot. And listening to music while staring out the window. For me, winter is the months of brooding. I really don't do well when it gets dark at 4 o'clock. It doesn't help that I have a lot on my mind, either. I have been so tired. That bugs me, cause I want to get up and get out. Today I went to one of the local gyms and decided to get a trial membership for the sake of my sanity. I need to move too much...

We got a Christmas tree yesterday, a weird tradition that I don't really understand. The lights are pretty but I really feel bad for the trees, all dying for some stupid trinket ornaments that remind us of our childhood. Plus, they charge too damn much for pathetic looking trees. I think I'm starting to understand Christmas to some extent, though it brings with it a lot of nostalgia. Somehow, during Christmas I always feel lonely even when I'm surrounded by people. It must just be winter...

I'm really looking forward to going to Montana. At least there's probably snow there... Too bad I can't watch Lord of the Rings before I go thanks to SOMEONE's GRE's. Nice scheduling ; p. I'm trying to motivate myself to read the first book in its entirety but I'm too sleepy. *laughs* I've mostly been wafting in and out of meditation to music enough to watch a few movies and go back to sleep. [Ex. Crouching Tiger, Hidden Dragon & Family Man] Today I feel better... tomorrow I will probably feel even better : )

Daytime is nice, ESPECIALLY when there's sun. It's harder to cope when it gets dark. x-p Anyhow, now I'm rambling.... Will write more later, if anything happens. Probably if not.