daily grind
Getting back in the swing. Working full-time eleven-dollars-an-hour doing work in the shop at Foley Sign Co., where Justin also works. I'm starting to feel gradually more normal but yesterday's trip to Seattle's "International District" showed me very clearly that my head is still in Japan. It was the most lucid I've felt since coming home.

I thought I was supposed to feel that I've changed while everyone else has stayed the same but instead I feel quite the opposite-- that returning here has regressed me to who/what I was before I left and everyone else has changed to fit into the place where they are. I feel useless, awkward and foreign and furthermore, I'm only slowly discovering the parts of my perspective that have been altered.

Of course I'll give it some more time, as this morning is the first morning I've woken up without feeling like a ton of bricks had been dropped on me. I don't expect to be updating too often in the coming weeks but I'll keep posting back as I settle in.