fat cats
This stupid study abroad program is frustrating me SO MUCH. It's all a freaking bureaucracy, just like the University. As if it weren't enough that the stipulations of one of the large scholarships I'm being offered (just over $7,000) is that I cannot take any other scholarships specific for study abroad (meaning no $7,000 Freeman, $4,000 Bridging or $3,400 Poust scholarships--- latter two I've not yet been offered), the program coordinator now tells me it's "culturally insensitive" to turn down such a "presitgious" scholarship. Um, hello? Does it not make sense that since I'm in need I would apply for MORE THAN ONE scholarship and take THE MOST I can get? Fuck protocol, dude, I'm going with the loot. If it makes the difference between going and not going, I don't really care if my "sensitivity" means the Waseda programme doesn't get the AIEJ scholarship next year. If they really cared about "Sensitivity" they wouldn't be limiting me to just accepting their scholarship now, would they??

God damn bureaucrats.

And, hey, I don't mean to sound like a comment whore... cos god knows I hate it when people blog socially. But... Is anyone even out there?

update: ARGH. Just kill me. I got my first loan repayment notice today. Mind you, no payments or balance due until March 2005, but they just wanted to let me know that I had $350 of interest on my loans already. Um, thanks a fucking lot guys. And this was in a care package from my parents. A care package with chocolate. The chocolate is now gone. The loan payment has been filed. And I, dear friends, have sunk into a depression deep enough to cancel out the unbearable need to get laid that's been bothering me for the last twelve hours. Fuck it all, I'm just going to drown myself instead of whining. I'm not having fun, I won't be having fun, and I'll never find what I'm looking for anyway.