No news is good news
And once again comes the time of year when I must ask myself, "WHY AM I NOT AT BURNING MAN?!?!!?" I think about it and it makes me want to cry. I've wanted to go to burning man ever since I first heard of it, back when it was far more inconspicuous and low scale, before it (like everything else these days) rocked the web. I wanted to go so much back then but I couldn't, because of 'parental negotiation problems'. Then, I had the time. Now I'm shackled by work (I already booked by 3 weeks vacation this summer) and classes. I can do anything I want!!! So why am I not there? Please tell me that next year I'll be able to go... and next year, like every year since I was 12, I won't be sitting here wishing I was on the Playa.

An acquaintance of mine in Bellevue is going. She went for the first time last year; fell in love there. She wanted me to come be a part of their camp. Let's just say that while this girl is nice, she makes me uncomfortable. She's just too... out there... never went to college, wears her hair in dreads, works at a gas station, breathes more pot than air. Through her, Justin and I first got high. She also provided the wine that got me first drunk. I think she thrives off my "newbie-ness" and it makes me rather nervous. So I said no. It costs a bit and it means taking more time off work. I want to be able to go to the Man by myself. But I don't have the resources for it. I could never take Justin, it wouldn't be his thing. I'd love to go with Alex, but he'd never go with me. Finally, I think I know some people I could go with... but they've already gone this year. Sigh. The price I pay for waiting.

In any case, I've got a strong sense of anxiety about next spring/summer. Will I go abroad or will it just ruin my chances of Editorship with the Voice? Will it throw my college off? Should I do it summer instead and rack up more financial aid debt and not have the benefit of summer work? Bah. We'll see how the Voice thing goes, our first meeting is tonight and we'll get things squared away.

Oh, and I've listed a new comic called Return to Sender. The art is excellent and the story r0x. I stole it from Emily, who linked to it a while ago. (By the way, thanks for the tape, Em! I haven't had a chance to listen to it yet but I'll let you know what I think when I do : )